Shoot! I probably sound pathetic, don't I? Dammit! I was supposed to be the best heroine in my story! bakit ba kasi ang hirap magpaka-cool sa sarili kong storya? bakit ba ang hirap isabuhay ng mga isinusulat ko?
I really have the guts to talked like this here. No one cares :))
Things undone, words unspoken. Usually I end up like this. Really having a hard time saying what I really feel. Makes my loved ones annoyed sometimes. I don't actually notice that I'm acting what I feel, na parang ikanagugulat ng mga taong nakapaligid sakin like "whoa. problema mo ba?" then ako " wala.(kahit meron) " . They really don't have idea why I'm acting like a scowling black bitter owl pretending that I really don't care when obviously I'm deym affected. Hoho! Attitude problem? Ergh!
I've been hurt before oh well everyone does. (magdeny panget) Not necessarily heartache caused by boys but I'm going to focus on that hoho! (marami mas interested don ih :| ) (love problems patok!) So un mga, noon I really envy my friends having a 'perfect-cute love story' kasi my First love story doesn't end up a fairy tale. Well HE cheated and I'm so asking my self why? yenno!I really hated him then. Ang sama niya, paano niya nagawa mang iwan? Naalala ko, ilang beses ko nang na-murder sa imagination ko yun (hoho! sarreh) Then I realized that maybe he has his own reason naman why daba? Sino ba gusto makasakit? wala naman. Then now I was just thinking that I should have thanked him pa kasi he gave me the chance to meet someone better. Much, muuuuuch better. Pero yun nga, it leaves scars na kasi, yung tipong andon na yung takot mo na baka again. Maiwan at mag mukang tanga ka nanaman? yung maranas mo nanaman yung pain. And sometimes it pushes you into playing safe. (tsk. tsk. mali to.)
Can love teach me? teach me love. (alien ako)
I have this new found great love (hi boypren! :)
Will he leave me and I couldn't do anything, The deal is over. I knew it would happen and yet, And for sure I couldn't help the tears.
Would I say "Don't go." would I cry softly? But what if he don't listen? Would he walk toward the door without looking back? Should I run and beg after him? What if He shove me? lakas ng Imagination ko no? Drama queen! hoho!
My shitless imagination.
Would we end up learning something beyond boundaries? Would I able to teach him to forgive? Teach him to trust? to find a ground to rest his soul and heart. Would he teach me my heartache, jealousy and that real life is still way better than made up stories? Can we teach each other good and bad things? and somehow, amidst all that? Luckily, coincidentally Love taught us :)
hindi naman natin kailangan ng perfect ih. Perfect was boring anyway. I want to do what I can while I still can. I wanted to learn everything. And I know that I still need at least a hundred years to learn everything I need to learn.
Statue – Lil Eddie Song Lyrics
